manifestation with flower essences

follow your bliss and you are set on a track that has been there all along.

when you use flower essences to call upon the power of the universe
you are not quite prepared for what is to come
though the flowers know and guide you as gently as they can
a powerful fortification of spirit's desire

when asking for the assistance of flowers
it is important to consider how delicate
yet strong they are
when you pick a rose bloom watch carefully for thorns

when you walk in the woods
or upon the tundra
watch your step

when you use flower essences
you invoke a power beyond what you can see
what science can measure
what the human mind can comprehend

this planet sustains life
because of flowers
each bud as it unfolds
blooms a message

These past months have brought with them
flower essences plenty powerful
many manifestations with intent
and so it is

The most important place in the world

as human beings with
aspirations
obligations
responsibilities
goals
egos

sometimes the most important place in the world
is where we are right now

yes, eckhart tolle will say
that is the most important place ever
is right now
and he is right

it takes practice
patience
and love

tonight
i held space for a dear friend
another human being

today i struggled
with grief
with focus
with attention
on goals
aspirations
obligations
responsibilities
goals
my ego

tonight
i held space
for grief
a daughter
for her father

i wanted to focus
on my schoolwork
on my own schedule
yet being present
providing a safe place
a sacred space
was the most important place to be in the entire world

a sacrifice for all that i aim for
yet a ritual for all that i aim for
a meal, a wife, a husband
tonight, all here in my humble abode

the release of grief
the release of guilt
a safe harbor
for another human being

tonight
being present for another human being
was more important than my own goals
my own aspirations and responsibilities

tonight i fulfilled a destiny
a fate, if you will
a mission, a vision

it is of the utmost importance to the healing of the planet
for each individual to heal themselves

tonight i provided space for this path to healing
and i would do it all over again

i am an anchor to the light of Christ

for this i am grateful
to this night because
being present for grief
being present for healing
being present for the release of guilt
was the most important place in the world

peace, courage, love, and joy
to all

ten minute stream of consciousness

the time space contiuum has a hole in it and i lept for my life. a dream a hope a flee from negativity from others. it was courageous and by force of will by force of the angel standing behind me saying gently, whispering if you don't jump i'm going to push you. thank you God, thank you for this message in a spiritual vision. the time space continuum has a hole in it and i'm looking at it. the space i just emerged from and dropped another five pounds along the way. how different life is now, any stress i create is mine, and if it comes from others, i have full control of whether or not i want to keep company with these others. i feel free and am figuring out how to structure my days, what my sleep pattern is - naturally. why isn't there a website that gives this information out? there's got to be a connection between the time we are born and our natural sleep cycle. can i really operate on a south pacific time zone while operating a business in alaska? i can hope or can continue to heal, to grieve, the loss of a former structure that was killing me, mind body and soul. continue to be grateful for having the courage, the faith, the hope, the dream to leap for my life. as tears well up, the time space continuum has a hole in it and i lept through it. this is my reality, this is my life, no one holds the keys to my future except for me. i'm sorry i didn't speak up sooner, i apologize for being so submissive, for not fighting for an organization that i loved but did not love me back. my heart is broken, i am healing and the time space continuum has a hole in it. now i am here making repairs, catching up with school, where did the last two weeks go? holy crap, so glad, do thankful, to be alive, to be living, so grateful for this life of mine, this life i chose, this human body, this beingness. i lept and flew, floated actually, carried by the whirlwinds in the time space continuum, dizzying, keeping momentum, creating a vision of a small business to practice how to run a business before leaping through the next time space continuum where my dreams of a mind body spirit wellness practice is being built at my request by the universe. using graphic design, something i know how to do, a skill. to learn the ins and  outs of running the business. It's a good formula because much of the structure is the same – serving clients, keeping records, tracking time, business expenses, listening beyond the spoken to what they want.

The Seeker

Inspiration seeks day and night
for a mind, a heart, a soul, a body
a willing hand with a pen
nimble fingers with a keyboard.

Oh the sweet sound of inspiration
as it rustles the leaves on the trees,
casting shimmering shadows on the bees
buzzing from flower to flower.

The crisp, clean feeling of inspiration
as it freezes hairs inside your nose
as you breathe in, breathe out.

Heart breaking inspiration
driving past a horrible auto accident,
police, ambulance, sirens, fire department
rubber-neckers causing a traffic jam.

Inspiration seeks a prayer for the injured,
courage for the rescuers,
and peace for those left behind.

Inspiration chased away
by mean words from mean people,
yet it continues to seek.

Dark clouds on a dark day,
rain pouring down
flooding an ice-dammed town.
Inspiration floods with tears
as homes are washed away.

There is one place inspiration finds
the most comforting, welcoming,
wonderful place to be – the heart.

I do not seek inspiration, it seeks me.
Sometimes it enters
through the open door of my heart.
Other times it knocks on the door
and I open it.

Other times, the knock is unheard
the noise of others' in my head is so loud.
It is during these times of tuning out
I have the most faith of inspiration's patience.
Inspiration does not belong to me.

Inspiration is a being that seeks the company of me.
I never know what inspiration will bring,
what it will look like,
how it will be dressed,
what season it will come,
or how long its stay will be.

I do not seek inspiration, it seeks me.

Caring for Antiques

The light brown antique library desk sits diagonally, happy in the corner of my office. For far too long it sat waiting, buying its time – being used by so many others. Now settled into its almost forever home – an 888 sq. ft. condo. It's perfect in size, near perfect in condition,  beautifully weathered and sturdy in its creaks. The antique library desk was center of attention until last week.

Some young man's grandfather built a natural colored pine chest for his daughter's wedding years ago. With both grandpa and mom passed away now, the pine chest was carelessly posted on Craigslist. Feeling unwanted and unloved at just $80. Why would a pine chest want to stay with such a cheap kid anyway? The antique desk says nothing but a silent $175.

The pine chest is rather snappy with it's heavy lid – just needs some TLC and little time to adjust. The antique library desk sits diagonally happy in the corner of a 9x10 ft room with a castaway pine chest. The chest will warm up and the desk knows it. There's nothing a lifetime of tender, loving, care can't fix. But as for antiques? They don't make 'em like this anymore and they both know it.