ten minute stream of consciousness

the time space contiuum has a hole in it and i lept for my life. a dream a hope a flee from negativity from others. it was courageous and by force of will by force of the angel standing behind me saying gently, whispering if you don't jump i'm going to push you. thank you God, thank you for this message in a spiritual vision. the time space continuum has a hole in it and i'm looking at it. the space i just emerged from and dropped another five pounds along the way. how different life is now, any stress i create is mine, and if it comes from others, i have full control of whether or not i want to keep company with these others. i feel free and am figuring out how to structure my days, what my sleep pattern is - naturally. why isn't there a website that gives this information out? there's got to be a connection between the time we are born and our natural sleep cycle. can i really operate on a south pacific time zone while operating a business in alaska? i can hope or can continue to heal, to grieve, the loss of a former structure that was killing me, mind body and soul. continue to be grateful for having the courage, the faith, the hope, the dream to leap for my life. as tears well up, the time space continuum has a hole in it and i lept through it. this is my reality, this is my life, no one holds the keys to my future except for me. i'm sorry i didn't speak up sooner, i apologize for being so submissive, for not fighting for an organization that i loved but did not love me back. my heart is broken, i am healing and the time space continuum has a hole in it. now i am here making repairs, catching up with school, where did the last two weeks go? holy crap, so glad, do thankful, to be alive, to be living, so grateful for this life of mine, this life i chose, this human body, this beingness. i lept and flew, floated actually, carried by the whirlwinds in the time space continuum, dizzying, keeping momentum, creating a vision of a small business to practice how to run a business before leaping through the next time space continuum where my dreams of a mind body spirit wellness practice is being built at my request by the universe. using graphic design, something i know how to do, a skill. to learn the ins and  outs of running the business. It's a good formula because much of the structure is the same – serving clients, keeping records, tracking time, business expenses, listening beyond the spoken to what they want.